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I wore carefully selected jeans, although I rarely wear them. A tie-dyed top (but a blouse, not a T-shirt). Took the time to do my hair, even though it currently requires a half-gallon of gel and nearly as much hairspray since I direly need a haircut.

Tossed on a few pieces of funky jewelry (of course). Open-toed platforms (also of course) to show off my funky neon orange pedicure.

Finally, when I arrived, I carefully labeled my nametag with "current student/diva."

Maybe if they think I'm the diva they won't poke too deeply. Won't see the cracks, the flaws.

They're the applicants but I feel that it's I who must sell myself and our program rather than the other way around.


What a weird little world we all inhabit, here in our heads. Simultaneously both of-the-world and yet not, because we are each our own little worlds.

Tiny bubbles, dancing around each other, hoping that no one will break us. Hoping that we won't break ourselves. Won't show ourselves to be nothing but meaningless puddles, worthless in the great cosmic everything-nothingness.


So "diva" I was, at least for that night. And maybe (just maybe) that's how they saw me. Or maybe the saw the cracks.

If they did see my cracks, I hope they jump in.

There's so much more in the cracks to explore than there is on the surface.


This has been a post for LJ Idol. If you enjoyed it, I will post the voting information later in the week.

Date: 2011-02-18 09:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Very nice entry. Well done.

Date: 2011-02-18 09:47 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-02-19 07:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yes, this was very good :) Loved the ending.

Date: 2011-02-19 05:36 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-02-19 10:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
It's good to see you back in the main game, and you certainly don't disappoint. <3

Date: 2011-02-19 10:41 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-02-20 05:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
:) back at ya

Date: 2011-02-20 01:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh, I do programs like this for my alma mater all the time and I always feel like I have to sell my school! So I definitely know what you are talking about.

Date: 2011-02-20 05:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yeah, this was interviews for next year's PhD cohort...

Date: 2011-02-21 12:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Really liked the line about the bubbles hoping not to break. Nicely done. :)

Date: 2011-02-21 03:15 am (UTC)

Date: 2011-02-21 12:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Great job! It's been so long since I've been in this kind of position.

Date: 2011-02-21 03:15 am (UTC)

Date: 2011-02-21 09:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Beautifully written. :-)

Date: 2011-02-21 01:53 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-02-21 01:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
The cracks are definitely the interesting parts.

Date: 2011-02-21 01:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
They are indeed.

A different take...

Date: 2011-02-21 04:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
But I *LIKE* different.

Thanks for sharing!

Re: A different take...

Date: 2011-02-21 07:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm glad you liked it!

Date: 2011-02-21 04:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I like how you labeled the nametag. Sometimes declaring a title like that keeps people from poking beyond where you want them to.

Date: 2011-02-21 07:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Indeed it does.

Date: 2011-02-22 12:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Loved it, definitely got it.

Finally, when I arrived, I carefully labeled my nametag with "current student/diva."

The perfect touch.

Date: 2011-02-22 01:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Of course. :)

Date: 2011-02-22 05:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
It's true. The cracks are often much more interesting than what is so plainly seen on the surface.

Date: 2011-02-22 05:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Indeed they are.

Date: 2011-02-22 11:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
What's that Kurt Vonnegut saying? "We are the people we pretend to be, so we must be careful who we pretend to be?"

I don't think pretending to be a diva is really that bad an idea. Real divas are awesome. :D

Date: 2011-02-22 11:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I can definitely relate to this, assembling the perfect mask. I like the way you ended it, with a happy ending either way.

Date: 2011-02-22 11:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you. :)


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